Aaron just wrote about how cool Pierre is, and how he noticed similarities between Pierre’s experience and his own. I am like-minded:
On page 1013, we see into Pierre’s mind. A prisoner of the French in Moscow, he has come to realize the great value of simple comforts, of the sensuous experiences and honest human interactions that in fact give us the greatest pleasure. He realizes the joy of life’s choices, and wishes for nothing more than the opportunities of the future:
“All Pierre’s dreams were now turned to the time when he would be free. And yet afterwards and for the whole of his life Pierre thought and spoke with rapture of that month of captivity, of those irrevocable, strong, and joyful sensations, and above all of that full peace of mind, that perfect inner freedom, which he experienced only in that time”. (1013)
He spends his time wishing for his freedom, without realizing that the PRESENT is the best time of his life. A few summers ago, I went on a trip with NOLS, a backpacking organization, for a month in the wilderness. I had a great time, but nonetheless during the trip I constantly caught myself daydreaming about getting back to civilization: all the food I would eat, the people I would talk to, the movies I would see, the music I would listen to. Like Pierre, every little experience in the “freedom” of civilization seemed enormously better, and I scorned myself for having taken those experiences for granted throughout my life. When I got back to civilization, my friends and I all went and got good food, listened to music, went to a movie (You, Me, and Dupree–not a good choice, but better than nothing), and initially these things all seemed amazing, and the good food truly never tasted so good. But within a matter of days, I of course began to stop savoring my experiences, began taking them for granted once again. To quote Tolstoy here, “a superfluity of life’s comforts destroys all the happiness of the satisfaction of one’s needs” (1013, of course). Indeed, even on the first night back in town, I was hanging out in a hotel room with my two best friends from the trip, and we were all pretty quiet. After a while, one of my friends said, “You know, the steak was good. And the Radiohead was great. But for all that, right now I’d still rather be back in the mountains, sitting around the campfire”. Now, this had as much to do with the Nature vs. Civilization debate as it does with living in the present moment, but it is still similar to Pierre’s feeling that in captivity, he was truly free. If you’ve read this far, thanks for indulging my personal reflection.
Also, I’d just like to note, on the NEXT page (1014, for dummies), there is one of my favorite descriptive passages in the whole book, that I’ll copy here just for the sake of making this already long post just a little bit longer. And I think you’ll enjoy it:
“When, on the first day, having gotten up early in the morning, he went out of the shed at dawn and saw the at first dark cupolas and crosses of the Novodevichye Convent, saw the frosty dew on the dusty grass, saw the heights of the Sparrow Hills, and the wooded bank meandering along the river and disappearing into the purple distance, when he sensed the touch of the fresh air and heard the noise of jackdaws flying across the field from Moscow, and when the light then suddenly sprayed from the east and the rim of the sun floated majestically from behind a cloud, and the cupolas, and the crosses, and the dew, and the distance, and the river, everything began to play in the joyful light–Pierre felt a new, never yet experienced feeling of the joy and strength of life”. (1014 baby)